Southern Hospitality? Home in VA.

So I stopped by a 7-11 to grab some gum. I walked out and was throwing away the wrapper when I noticed a young Spanish couple with a baby in a stroller walking by. As they walked pasted me, this old white grandpa called out, "Hey ma'am? Hold on I got something for ya."

They couple was kinda confused, as was I. I was like that's kind of weird. Is this old man crazy? But the couple stopped to see what he was going to do or what he was going to give them. The old man slowly rummaged through the back seat of his car and came out with a brown teddy bear in a sweater. He kinda dusted it off and said with a smile," I got this teddy bear. You can give it to your son."

This literally made me laugh out loud because of just how nice I thought it was. I thought he was crazy, but he was actually being nice.

The couple smiled back and thanked him.

"How old is your son? He's a good looking kid." He never stopped smiling.

As the couple left and the old man got his car to leave. I was just so entertained by what happened. And I turned to the left as I stuck a piece of gum and started chewing, I saw the green grass and trees that I loved about this town and was suddenly struck with a feeling of sadness.

I saw that this was Alexandria, Virginia. My hometown. A beautiful town with wonderful people who will surprise you with random acts of kindness. And I wanted to be back in this town. But I was in Los Angeles. And it suddenly made me afraid. Will I ever reach my goals in life? Will I have the success that I want? Will I be able to start a family and take care of them?

I suddenly wondered if the grandpa was all alone. Or who might he have bought the teddy bear for? Or how did he get it? How did it make him feel? Why was he so delighted to give this teddy bear to a little boy who was a complete stranger? Did he have any children? Or grandchildren? I thought maybe no.

This made me feel very alone and scared. I don't want to be alone. I want to be surrounded by love with my family and friends. I feel like I'm running out of time. I need to work harder.